Hey there. My name is Alexandra, I'm a girl in my 20's, and I'm from Europe. I am battling autism among other mental health issues, and because of this, I live in a supported living community. I am working on becoming a professional ballerina, dancer and athlete - within many styles and disciplines, however currently I'm only doing ballet, because my mental health is really bad. My goal is to work really hard on my mental health, so I can return to everything else, go full-time and become a professional. I want to become a professional within many dance styles (such as contemporary, floorwork, tap, burlesque, pole dancing, etc. plus a few styles with a partner), where ballet is what I will be doing the most, and a professional within many sport disciplines, which are within figure skating (solo- and pair skating), outdoor roller skating (on quads), artistic roller skating (solo- and pair skating, on inline- and quads), rhythmic gymnastics, spring gymnastics, artistic gymnastics, sports acrobatics, cheerleading and aerial arts (hoop- and silks). When I say professional, I mean someone who does lots of performances and competitions, and wins them.
I also work on becoming a professional model, actress, artist, fashion designer, and nail technician, but honestly, currently I'm not doing much of it, because I fell into a really dark hole called depression. I want to work myself up again, so I can do all the things I love again. When I was younger, I did a lot of road cycling, and honestly, I miss it a lot. I've figured out that road cycling is might what can save me, meaning I will have one year where I will focus on ballet and road cycling alone, and my goal is to do nine hours of ballet per day, and six hours of road cycling per day, six days a week. I know it sounds insane, but I've done it before, so I can do it again. I used to battle anorexia, and I do not want to battle it again, however I want to lose weight, as I've gained a huge amount of weight from my medication. I still need to eat a lot every day, especially when I'm dancing and cycling this much. Currently I don't dance a lot, and I also don't cycle at all, in fact I still need to buy a road bike, which I will buy in early September, as the bike I want is first realized in September. I will also buy a Zwift home trainer for bad weather days.
My (old and new) hobbies includes journaling, reading, karting, mountain biking, hot yoga, acroyoga, reformer pilates, hot pilates, running, knitting, crocheting, and more - currently I don't do everything, but I will. I also really want to open some small businesses, and currently I got six ideas for different small businesses. I will at some point also return to high school, because I still haven't got my diploma. I will study high school single subjects, and collect the subjects into a full education. I also play music, and I will soon play it on a higher level, and even more instruments, which are piano, violin, viola, cello, ukulele, and flute (transverse and piccolo). I know I got a lot of plans, but it's honestly what keeps me breathing. Even though I'm very depressed, then I'm looking forward to my new life and small things, such as me going with a friend to the city on Thursday next week! We'll go shopping, eat sushi, and then we'll visit the piercer! My friend wants a piercing, and I want three: one septum, and two helix in the same ear. I already got four in each earlobe, and one in each nip. When I've gotten these three piercings, I got thirteen piercings in total, so I will stop after these ones. Also, I will show you a haul of everything I've gotten from the shopping trip.
This blog will be about everything I have on my mind plus all of my journeys. I will not write about my weight loss journey, as this blog is mostly a mental health blog, and I feel weight loss can be a sensitive subject. Also, if you'd like, you're always welcome to reach out to me in the comments or in my e-mail, which you find here <3
x Alexandra
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